Self-Projector HD Experiment Diary: July 19th, 2021

Wanted to share a few personal breakthroughs over this past week:

– After pondering about why I’m unhappy with my IG content, I realized that I’m holding myself back in what I’m sharing. I’ve been in constant consume mode and hadn’t given myself permission to create what I really wanted to create.

I’ve told myself “I’m not qualified” or “no one cares what I know” or “I can’t prove what I know, so I don’t want to share it.” And I’ve been downplaying my entire knowledge base. But after I figured that out, I decided to change it because I’m done with that story.

And lo-and-behold, I had a huge hit of inspiration late last night. I created from a space of channeling. And I now have 6 weeks of content planned that I don’t even fully remember creating (it was also 3am mind-you. Inspiration doesn’t care about time lol)

Today I looked back over it and I’m honestly really proud and surprised at it. It feels right and now I also just get to relax until my next creative inspiration hits.

As a SPP, this is really cool to see in action. Deep, focused work, followed by a deep period of relaxation. This has always been my pattern but I’m not forcing it like I used to. Rather, I’m allowing it and following my energy.

– I’ve wanted to be a course creator for at least 2-3 years now, but I never fully did it because I was always too burnt out, had other excuses, etc.

I set an intention for last week that I was going to record my first course. One of the days I had a hit of inspiration the night before, just before falling asleep, on what my first course was going to be. It wasn’t at all what I had planned, not even something I had in mind to ever make into a course.

But I woke up the next day energized and my throat center literally felt jazzed to talk about it. So I did exactly that. And the past few days I’ve been editing the video and again, I’m surprised and delighted at the quality of it.

It’s really rewarding to feel this kind of alignment. Content, relaxed, and self-validated. I love this shift!

Lillith Elaina

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